SKOOL..............
Well,i came late fer skool todae...shit bcoz Mr hirman was my EOP lecturer fer tis term...i hev worked wit hym n i fucking noe how is he n wats of his expectation...a gud thing i wasn't scolded juz now bcoz he noes me well..bukannye aku sengaje pon dtg lmbt..well,i may not like the way he werks but i hev to bcoz bout half of his class students last semester managed to get in to poly...Reached there n yeah gotta formed a group...so,my grp consists of me, baby, an, lina, zura, hilmi, yong qin, faz and adelyn...not sure of my new group but i reali hope everything goes well...Chose baby as leader bcoz i noe he's responsible...i'm so fucking gotta score 3.5 fer tis semester fer my Overall GPA...or else my cumulative/final gpa will be total shit..i'm reali left wit one option n tat is, to go poly...aniwae,my class advisor is Ms Joei chua...
Being an emcee totally freaked me out...my heart was thumping fast tat dae wen i saw bout 800 students in front of me but still i managed to get it thru...They laughed n they cheered so i'm glad they are attentive...But,april intake might be abit difficult to handle coz they are much stubborn than jan intake..abit difficult to get them on the ball..so,unlucky fer me i gotta be the security again fer this term at april camp...i gonna hev to stay up all nyte to sit in front of the toilet n do a spot check fer the gerls in case they smoke...and for god sake! i hev to handle those wit attitude problem..and worst of all, be an emcee again fer the camp..haish...
M.L........
Gerlz!!!! Check tiz Out!!!! The mask is wonderful isn't it?? I paint it black bcoz black shows hidden identity wit hidden personality...powerkn??hehe...hey, anyone care to design the mask?? i'm still looking fer a suitable one...Black and Gold peepz!!!
LYFE.......
12 April 2010, marked the dae i lose my virginity to SINGLE LYFE...hahaha!!! I'm no longer single...i'm happily attached to my FIRST LOVE, MUHD SHAHRIL BIN ZAINI aka RYAN NIL BOLTSTON.....He knelt down, took out a ring and ask fer my hand..Isn't tat wat i've alwaes wanted?? He's my PRINCE CHARMING!!!!hee... My fairytale story has not end yet..Now, i noe it has juzt began...Will my relationship wit hym last long?? Like some ppl, i'm still not sure of his love towards me....
All my frens are hepi n the single ones are worried wen they heard me getting attached.."sial uh, aisah da attached eh?? kimak,org yg tk pnah attached, da attached.".....so,tiz means you gerls pon da kne start crk org..hehe...
Prince hev hurt me wit his harsh werds..I'm hurt but i kept it to myself...I noe i may be wat he said but i still noe my limits n i dun go far....you noe my style, i'm never gonna say aniting to my loved ones if i'm hurt by their way...i will still treat them as gud as it n smile n make sure they will never trace a part of me being hurt...Some may sae its veri difficult to noe whether i'm hurt or not bcoz i'm alwaes putting a smile n i alwaes cared fer everyone....he apologised to me n i cried bcoz he said he've been a bad guy to me...i hev never thought tat way...No matter wat my loved ones did, i will never say tat n its difficult fer me to be angry towards my loved ones...n you noe i can't see a guy cry...my eyes will be teary or worst still,i will walk n look away...there's alot of me tat ppl hev still yet to reveal n i guess it will be in me....aniwae, i love hym so much fer the meantyme n i hope my feelings will stay there n not fade...People said tis, "TO ALL YOUR LOVERS OR EX-LOVERS, THERE IS NO, "YOU ONCE LOVE" BUT ITS EITHER YOU NEVER LOVE TAT PERSON OR YOU WILL ALWAES LOVE".....so guyz,even if u said u hate ur ex-lovers, you once said you love to them. So make up ur mind and think..its either you love forever even after you guyz parted or you realise u never love them at all...never said the 3 charmed werds unless you noe the true meaning of it...
Aniwae,lpk wit my gerls tat dae...then huda fren called n huda asked me to lie...the guy asked,"hie le saye ckp ngn huda??i replied, "ouh huda tkder,dier pegi toilet"...then,the guy asked,"dier patner nie skrg?"....i replied,"ouh pat tempat keje..aru je abes meeting"...then,he said,"ouh..ni sape nie? cute nyer suara...umur brape nie??"....then,i whispered to huda,"eh pantat! dier tnyer umo aku la sial..."....troz huda hang the line..hahaha!!!!huda said, kau jgn layan dier bodo,da start uh dier nyer gatal, tnyer umo nk knal2...desperate....hahahhaa!!!!all my gerlz laughed... then tadi,ate wit LINA at LJS...there;s tis one guy in white kip looking at me...lina bole joke lagi...aku ader tk selera nk makan org tgk aku je...i was fedup tat i told lina to block me from his view...duh!!sickening sia...
and worst still, i went to DND tat dae fer F&B students...danced fer them wit my mask on...there's tiz one particular handsome guy but gatal,got gerlfren alreadi mcm desperate gitu ask me,shai n lina to take off our mask...da knape??gatal na nk tgk muke pompan??......i dun understand wit some desperate guyz nowadayz....mcm2 hal sak happen since ari tu...byk sgt laki miang aku umpe...aiyo!!!tapi tkpe too bad, the two rings are together...~chachayie~
Btw, went to prince's nenek house again..asl aku gi sane je,aku nga uzur,tkle solat...nnti,nenek dier ingat aku maen2 plak...n i'm freaking upset with myself tat i cnnt solat bcoz i got mensus...i'm so like totally need HYM.....i got tons of problems i nid to tink..mum,financial,adek,kakak....migrain strike here n there but still i put on a smile n fake front...i alwaes got the restless feeling in me n wen i'm in tat situation,i got no mood...tats wen i'm afraid prince might be hurt...i got attached but i forgot tat i got lots of problems...i alwaes tell myself not to get attached bcoz my lyfe is full of problems....now,i'm afraid. i dun wan prince to get involved in my dark world wit full of problems...Wat i want is to make hym gain his smile bck again tat he used to hev....god, plz show us the ryte path n make our relationship last...i leave it all up to you....each tyme i prayed,i cried asking fer hym to last our relationship n may there be no problems tat arise...
* Stared at the window outside,
Will he forever be by my side??
I'm being haunted day n nyte by questions asking, " Will we stay long forever?"...
Afterall, he's now a part of me....
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